I feel like a jerk to myself...

[HummerBootlegFan1992]

I feel like I'm not looking forward to my birthday on June 11th this year...

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I feel like I'm getting old even though I am only turning 14 on June 11th. I feel like I have a negative attitude around everyone I know just because I don't get what I want, I hate my grades JUST because their mostly A's and B's, and I never seen snow (What do you expect? I lived in a terrible place called Orlando, Florida all my life) My teachers are very nice to me and alot of people I don't even know say hi to me at school all the time. How do I react? I start to either distract myself with the feeling of Super Mario or Famicom Bootlegs, or I go tell those strangers that their creepy + perverted.
Everyone seems to like me at school and I don't really approve of that (the only people I actually socialize with at school are my friends who are also autistic (Have you read my last post?) + a kid who helps us when conflicts happen around us) They, all 6 of them, (1 includes me, so if I wasn't there, it would be 5) are at my lunch table. I behave good in school just because I would get in trouble in school if I didn't. And how do I feel? I feel like a dick for no apparent reason. I have no apparent clue how I feel like this.
I feel like even though I'm good at school and I get all these prizes, I don't deserve them just because I don't like my good grades, or behaving good, or why do people like me for some reason.
Also, I don't eat candy unlike every other kid in my school. (Candy is bad for your teeth.)
Anyways, moving on.
The fact that I would be in deep shit if I didn't humiliate myself by behaving myself at school, getting good grades, and listening to creepy girls wave Hi to me... It makes me wonder why I am in a terrible school community...
The only place I feel majorly happy in is when I talk to my friends on this forum... Because I seem to have a strange obsession with bootleg games.

I feel like all this social stuff at my school is disgusting...

[fcgamer]

My brother has autism, and while he always got good grades in school, he never really fit in.  This was back in the days before people really had autism diagnosed, so he just knew he was different, but tried to fake the part around his friends and what not.  Later after he was diagnosed as having autism and the family came to understand and accept his differences and special needs better, my brother said that he felt much better himself, as he said that he always felt as if he were an actor or something, never really being himself before.

I know myself that although I don't have autism, I definitely do have some social inadequacies going on at times.

[TALUIGI]

What autism is? It's a problem?

[HummerBootlegFan1992]

TALUIGI

May 24 2015, 11:31:07 AM

What autism is? It's a problem?[/quote]Taluigi, Autism is a syndrome I have. It's called Asperger's Syndrome but to shorten it is autism. It is commonly made fun of because people call autistic kids retarted, dumb, etc. "Special" is a word I'm not sure about.

[TALUIGI]

Oh...   :\

[HummerBootlegFan1992]

TALUIGI

May 24 2015, 05:39:39 PM

Oh...   :\ [/quote]Yeah, I don't like when people make fun of me cause of my autism... (that only happens 1%)

People also seem to think kids get autism from vaccinations. That is NOT true, because I have had autism since I was born, although my parents didn't find out until I was 5 years old.

[KAGE-008]

I have the same syndrome too but since last year I've never been fit in around people at college. I often tend to miss the people from my childhood just because of that - believe me, it was satisfying when everyone liked me back in the elementary/high school days... now that I'm in my SECOND year at college, I'm still suffering the opposite situation.