I feel like I'm not looking forward to my birthday on June 11th this year...
Warning: Spoiler Contains some content that, if you were me, you'd cry over.
I feel like I'm getting old even though I am only turning 14 on June 11th. I feel like I have a negative attitude around everyone I know just because I don't get what I want, I hate my grades JUST because their mostly A's and B's, and I never seen snow (What do you expect? I lived in a terrible place called Orlando, Florida all my life) My teachers are very nice to me and alot of people I don't even know say hi to me at school all the time. How do I react? I start to either distract myself with the feeling of Super Mario or Famicom Bootlegs, or I go tell those strangers that their creepy + perverted.
Everyone seems to like me at school and I don't really approve of that (the only people I actually socialize with at school are my friends who are also autistic (
Have you read my last post?) + a kid who helps us when conflicts happen around us) They, all 6 of them, (1 includes me, so if I wasn't there, it would be 5) are at my lunch table. I behave good in school just because I would get in trouble in school if I didn't. And how do I feel? I feel like a dick for no apparent reason. I have no apparent clue how I feel like this.
I feel like even though I'm good at school and I get all these prizes, I don't deserve them just because I don't like my good grades, or behaving good, or why do people like me for some reason.
Also, I don't eat candy unlike every other kid in my school. (Candy is bad for your teeth.)
Anyways, moving on.
The fact that I would be in deep shit if I didn't humiliate myself by behaving myself at school, getting good grades, and listening to creepy girls wave Hi to me... It makes me wonder why I am in a terrible school community...
The only place I feel majorly happy in is when I talk to my friends on this forum... Because I seem to have a strange obsession with bootleg games.
I feel like all this social stuff at my school is disgusting...